You cannot love or hate anything or anyone from your past. Why?
There’s quite a simple explanation. They may, or may not have changed, however, you certainly have.

If you believe you love anything from your past, you’re really only in love with a memory. The important thing to remember is, the memories you create are related to how you’re feeling at any given time.
When you’re feeling happy, you create happy memories.
I’ll leave you with one final thought. By the time you read this sentence, you will be reading something written by somebody who doesn’t exist anymore.
They were written by somebody who is but a shadow of who I am today.